These hard times...

I wish I could die and reborn in someone else
another body, another place
and can change my name
no blue, no gray
no hurt myself, no hurt anybody else
I'm so tired and I feel dizzy
So I try just to sleep
but I can't,
something within hurts me
Such a deep well-known depression
it's telling me you are a weirdo, don't you see?
I'm insane. I know it
I'm sure they, too
They want me to live
but i feel too weak.
I'm trying...
'Don' cry. You shouldn't cry
don't be sad
You have to smile and laugh
You will be happy.
'Darlin I want you to smile', I hear he says